My mom was full of euphemisms when I was growing up. I think it’s a Southern thing, and I love her for it.:) Anyway, one of the euphemisms I remember best is, “Hold your horses!”, which was utilized whenever somebody was getting ahead of herself in action or anxiety.
I think that women often struggle with a certain tendency to sometimes let our thoughts and worries get away from us…like a herd of wild horses perhaps.:) We worry and agonize. We think and think and think about our problems and challenges until we are in near-despair, or hysteria, or fear, or indignation.
Some people come out of the womb with naturally easy-going personalities. But I think that truly steady hearts are grown by progressing in the spiritual life. Those souls get to the point that they can reign in their thoughts and allow “the peace of Christ which surpasses all understanding to guard their hearts and minds.”
Interiority is about becoming a woman of prayer and pondering–like Mary was. The Bible tells us that at the most pivotal, confusing, and important points in Mary’s life, she simply “pondered all these things in her heart.” Always, our Blessed Mother was receptive, trusting, accepting and hopeful. No matter what.
I was at a talk recently in which the priest reminded us that both sin and sanctity begin in our thoughts. I had never thought about it like that before. It makes so much sense to me to focus on how to reign in my thoughts and emotions. It makes sense, knowing my tendency to worry or to work myself into anger and bitterness sometimes, to learn how to throw out the trash and let in the treasure of the Holy Spirit’s counsel and grace–before I lose sight of Heaven because I have turned so far inward onto myself.
“You will keep in perfect peace him whose mind is steadfast, because he trusts in You.” ~Isaiah 26:3