Michael and I have been “ready” for this baby for about two weeks now. We’ve had the bags packed, the pack n’ play set up and ready, diapers and wipes stocked and organized, the van washed and vacuumed, the car seat installed, the baby toys and clothes ready, the linens washed and ready, and my extensive summer list of To-Do’s (mostly) tackled.
I’m ready to meet this precious little girl. But she is quite happy to stay in the oven at the moment.
I remember halfway dreading Gabriel’s birth because everything was so unknown and new–I had no idea, other than what I’d read in books and gleaned from conversations with friends–of how to get through labor and how to be a mother. And consequently I was completely at peace with simply letting him stay in as long as he wanted to! The fact that he came 15 days early took me somewhat by surprise. But I liken it to someone throwing you in a chilly pool you’re not sure you want to go swimming in. You’re thankful that it wasn’t up to you in the end to decide when and how you’d jump in!
The end of this pregnancy has been very different, because I’m so much more ready to have this baby! (Not the least of my reasons being that I’m much more physically uncomfortable this time around for a few reasons.)
After being honestly a bit disappointed each day of the past week and a half or so that the baby hasn’t arrived, I am thankful for a spiritual return to peace this weekend. After all, I was reminded these past couple of days, this baby isn’t choosing when she’s coming–God is.
So, keep checking back on Humble Handmaid and/or on Facebook. Baby Girl will come eventually! My due date isn’t until September 6, after all.
Thank you for your prayers, everyone!
St. Gerard Majella, pray for us!