I’ve probably come back to this post in my drafts seven or eight times now. There’s so much I want to say, but
probably don’t need to say. There’s so much I want explain about this season of my life right now, but could never do justice to in a blog post.
I’ve discerned clearly over the past several months that it’s time to slow down on blogging and podcasting. There are many reasons why I know that this is God’s will for me right now. My peace is one of them.
I recently told the good people at Breadbox Media that I can’t commit to hosting a weekly radio show anymore. (Don’t worry: I’m planning to release every one of the episodes I pre-recorded for the radio show. I’m simply editing them into podcasts.:) And I’ve cut writing deadlines, radio interviews, social media, speaking and podcasting down to an “as I have time and energy” basis.
You know, re-reading that last sentence makes me chuckle. Something like that, anyway. Honestly, ya’ll, I love, love, love to write and talk about my faith. God has given me some amazing opportunities to do that in different ways. But months ago I started to realize that I was saying “yes” to more than I could reasonably accomplish in 24 hours a day.
I think my Big Moment of realization came at a playdate a while back, when I overheard a friend of mine talking about me to a new mom who had just arrived. She gushed, “Erin is so great! She’s got three kids, and homeschools, and does Domestic Church, and has a blog and a podcast and a radio show! I don’t know how she does it all!”
My heart kind of squeezed itself when I overheard that. She had no idea that I walked around constantly anxious about how I was going to get it all done. It was the final wakeup call I needed in order to make some hard decisions about officially slowing down on commitments outside of my home.
But peace–I’ve had so much peace about slowing down. I’ve been doing more of other things lately.
Napping. Baking. Reading to my children. Praying. Making meals for friends in need. Spending time with my husband on nights not marked “spend time with Michael” on my to-do list. Spending time with my kids. Growing a new baby.
I’ve been reading again, too. In recent months, Til We Have Faces, Lady Susan and Her Daughter, Persuasion, and Kristin Lavransdatter.
I’ve even been doing more of something I haven’t had time to do in ages: watch TV. Michael and I watched the original three Star Wars movies together before going on a date to see the new one. I thoroughly enjoyed the Dr. Thorne miniseries, and I’m just now getting around to finishing the final season of Downton Abbey (thank you, Amazon Prime!).
Here I am, about to finally press Publish on this life update of a post that has taken me far too long to write. I just wanted you to know why it’s been quiet here on the blog, and why all of the upcoming episodes of the podcast are being released so slowly.
I have a couple of months left before my darling new baby boy makes his appearance. Please take a moment to pray for the last weeks of my pregnancy, for my family, and for me. Know that I prayed for you before you even read this.
Christ’s peace be with you!
I hosted a baby shower for my darling sister-in-law, due a month ahead of me. I’m about six months pregnant here.:)
I volunteered as a group leader for my parish’s VBS this summer. A friend and I shepherded ten six-year-old boys for five days (including my Gabriel)…it was wonderful and exhausting.:)
Showing off our snowball tongues!
My mom and two of my aunts had to help Gabriel get out of a tree he got stuck in at my mom’s house. How many Barker girls does it take to get a Franco out of a tree?!
Faith and Gianna, my two sweeties:)
My sweet, sweet baby boy, due in early August. Looking forward to getting this boy out of my tummy, off my bladder, and into my arms.:)