I wrote my Mommies and Monks post over a year ago, and lately I feel like nearly every word of the post and of Thomas Merton’s heartfelt prayer applies to where I am right now, once again. These days, however, I sometimes feel the “we have no idea where we’re going” part a little more deeply. We seem more “deep” into the road we have discerned God is calling us to, in particular with expecting our third child and going full-time with our small business this summer.
I read a great blog post once that talked about the fact that when you’re driving at night, you can’t see more than a few feet ahead of you. Even though you can’t see very far, you still make it to where you are going, in the end. (What a great analogy…I need to make sure I tell this one to my husband. Sometimes cars can be more inspiring than quotes from old monks.:)
Merciful Lord, I have no idea where we are going with babies and business and parenting and life sometimes. Michael and I know that the fact that we are fairly sure we are following your will for our lives doesn’t mean we’re actually doing so. We struggle often with doubt, and are so imperfect in so many ways. But we desire to know you, to love you, and to serve you, and those desires please you.
The story you are writing for us has a happy ending. Therefore we will continue to trust you, though we sometimes feel we are attacked and sinking. We will continue to consciously give glory to you by our cheerful hope, by our hard work, and by our humble and dignified yes to whatever you bring our way. Amen.